Sunday, 22 May 2016

Melancholia!

The translation of Melancholia is "the haunting melancholia that dominates the album". That just about sums it all up and I love the way it rolls off the tongue!
Whenever I dig out my photos of Oliver it's usually when my life is about to settle after a long hard struggle. He was my first and best horse, with me for over 20years after I found him as a wild and wayward 2year old. I knew he was the one for me even after he kicked the spot lights on my boyfriends Ford Escort (it was a looong time ago!) and then chased my sister out of his field. I loved his spirit, even though he often reduced me to tears of frustration as he flatly refused to behave like the other horses.
Eventually I gave up trying to mold him and just enjoyed his enthusiasm for adventure and went on the journey with him, even though I often had to shut my eyes and trust him completely.

We had such a bond and towards the end he taught me everything he could about healing and using Equine Reiki. He became very high maintenance in his old age!

Now I have the other three to look after, having the skills that Oliver taught me sure come in handy. Although this looks like Bo, it is actually Merlin at Bo's age. They're so alike, but Merlin likes to be airborn a lot more!
It's good to end on a high note (sorry for the pun). These pictures were actually taken on my very old phone, but they worked out quite well.  I really think it's time I got back to the studio and painted some flying horses :D

(I'm sure I don't need to say it again, but please don't copy or share these pictures without permission, thanks.)

Wednesday, 18 May 2016

The eye of the storm.


 
Jackie Morris once asked on her blog 'what if we only have a finite amount of words and what happens when we've used them up?'  That's how I feel at the moment, almost like I've run out of words.

I started blogging many years ago to write, because I found comfort in the sharing of words and stories. Unfortunately some of my words and pictures were taken and used without my permission and I shut that blog down. I started the Oakmoon blog purely to showcase my art, but felt that it didn't fully reflect me as a person, so other blogs were started and discarded as I tried to work out how much of my life should be shared and why I would share it at all.  I've made so many friends in the blogging community and miss them when they suddenly stop writing, so maybe some of my friends have missed my occassional posts or rambles. But I worry about who else is reading my words and why they would want to? I guess if I constantly think like that, then I would never write again and I miss the solace of it all.

I feel like I'm still recovering from last year. Bo's broken leg brought me almost to ruin, financially and emotionally and now I'm standing among the half rebuilt pieces of my life wondering who I am. I'm changed, I know that much, but I'm not yet sure who or what is left of me.





Thursday, 12 May 2016

Phewee!

To say the last few months have been hectic would be a total understatement! There have been days when I've felt so crushed by the amount of work and worry on my shoulders that I honestly don't know how I've got up and survived another day.  So many things have gone wrong, too many to go into to be honest but finally there's light at the end of the tunnel and I'm getting my life back together.

Not much work has been done in the Studio, mainly due to getting urgent work done to the house. It's not a big house, but when it's all in need of repair and I'm the only one able to have a go and I can't afford to pay for help, it seems enormous. That's when you find out who your true friends are. I've had to swallow my pride and ask for help and it's amazing how people suddenly vanish from your life. The ones who have stepped up though are clearly the keepers!

Although not much painting has happened, I have been out walking with my camera, and that's been very therapeutic for me.  There are more pictures to be posted on the Walking blog, but for now, here's my favourite of Manchee and his new best friend Wally (with my new best friend!)